This much is apparent at first sight.But many other details of the dream become intelligible when regarded from the stand-point of wish-fulfilment.
I take my reveng on Otto, not merely for to readily taking sides, against me, in that I accuse him of careless medical treatment (the injection), but I revenge myself also for the bad liquer which smells of fusel oil, and I find an expression in the dreamwhich unites both these reproaches;
The injection of a preparation of propyl.Still I am not satisfied , but continue to avenge myselfby comparing him with his more reliable colleage.
Thereby I seem to say:'I like him better than you.' But Otto is not the only person who must be made to feel the weight of anger. I take my revenge on the disobedient patient, by exchanging her for a more sencible and more docile one.
Nor do I passover Dr M.'s contradiction; for I express, in an obvious allusion, my opinion of him : namely, that his attitude in the ease is that of an ifnoramus. ('Dysentery will develop,etc.'). Indeed, it seems as though I were appealin g from him to someone better informed (my friend, who told me abouttrimethylamin), just as I have turned from Irma to her friend, and from Otto to Leopold.
It is as though I were to say: Rid me of these three persons, replace them by three others of my own choice, and I shall be rid of the reproaches which I am not willing to admit that I deserved!
In my dream the unreasonableness of these reproaches is demonstrated for me in the most elobarate manner. Irma's pains are not attributable to me, since she herself is to blame for them, in that she refuses to accept my solution.
They do not concern me, for being as they are of an organic nature, they cannot possibly be cured by psychic treatment - Irma's sufferings are satisfactorily explained by her widowhood (trimethylamin!); a state which I cannot alter. -
Irma's illness has been caused by in cautious injection administered by Otto, an injection of an unsuitable drug, such as I should never have administered. - irma's complaint is the result made with an unclean syringe, like the phlebitis of my old lady patient, where my injections have never caused any ill effects.
I am aware that these explanations of Irma's illness, which unite in acquitting me, do not agree with one another:that they even exclude one another. The whole plea - for this dream is nothing else - recalls vividly the defense offered by a man who was accused by his neighbour of having returned a kettle in a damaged condition.
In the first place, he, said, he had returned the kettle undamaged; in the second place, he had never borrowed it al all. A complicated defense, but so much the better: if only one of these three lines of defence is recognised as valid, the man must be acquitted.
Still other themes play a part in the dream, and their relation to my non-responsibility for Irma's illness is not so apparent my daughter's illness, and that of a patient with the same name; the harmfulness of cocaine; the affection of my patient, who was travelling in Egypt; concern about the health of my wife; my brother, and Dr. M; my own physical troubles, and anxiety concerning my absent friend, who is suffering suppurative rhinitis.
But if I keep all these things in view, they combine into a single train of thought, which might be labelled concern for the health of myself and others; professional conscientiousness. I recall a vaguely disagreeable feeling when Otto gave me the news of Irma's condition. Lastly, I am inclined, after the event, to find an expression of this fleeting sensationin the train of thoughts which forms part of the dream.
It is as though Otto had said to me; 'You do not take your medical duties seriously nough; you are not conscientious; you do not perform what you promise. ' there-upon this train of thought placed itself at my service, in order that I might give proof of my extreme conscientiousness, of my intimate concern about the health of my relatives, friends and patients.
Curiously enough, there are also some painful memories in the material, which confirm the blame attached to Otto rather than my own exculpation. The material is apparently impartial, but the connection between this broader material, on which the dream is based and the more limited theme from which emerges the wish to be innocent of Irma's illness, is, nervertheless un mistakable.
I do not wish to assert that I have entirely revealed the meaning of the dream, or that my interpretation is flawless.
I could still spend much time upon it; it could draw further explanations from it, and discuss further problems which it seems to propound. I can even perceive the points from which further mental associations might be traced;
But such considerations as a re always involved in every dream of one's own prevent me from interpreting it farther. Those who are over-ready to condemn such reserve , should make the experiment of trying to be more straighforward.
For the present I am content with the one fresh discovery which has just been made: If the method of dream interpretation here indicated is followed, it will be found that dreams do really possess a meaning, and by no means the expression of a disintegrated cerebral activity, as the writers on the subject would have us believe. When the work of interpretation has been completed the dream can be recognised as a wish-fulfilment.
Reference: Freud -The Interpretation of Dreams